( I fixed my graphics comm )

As I was re-coding, I reminisced my muses and how my graphics evolve around them. I've been doing graphics since a very long time as just a side hobby, but got more serious in iconing during my Adam Lambert fandom period. Back then, my muse was Tommy. It was 2009 - 2010 when I was still mainly using LiveJournal, my graphics was not good so I don't think I will go back that far to fix and restore my old graphics comm where all my Tommy arts are. Tommy wasn't a very popular icon subject, and that pushes me beyond my comfort zone to create all sorts of fannish things surrounding him. I did a decent job. I made many-many icons, a fanmix, picspams, etc. He was a cute glitterbaby. My first 'real' fandom experience ever.

( other fandoms )

Now two years apart, I got into BTS focusing on V. To be honest, I'm struggling. There are a lot of factors that contribute to this. One, I had two years break from Photoshop. I haven't been creating or learning anything new. The trend in the icon community changed a lot. I feel so old still clinging to icon styles from years ago. Two, I am very new to the fandom and have very small amount of resources. I need to dig in deeper, scour different parts of the internet and watch TONS of past videos to get my way around. Google is my friend, but there are only so much things you can find via google without base knowledge. It's 4+ years worth of fandom materials, I don't think I can ever catch up. Three, Tae is pretty, but I love him for his personality more than his looks (unlike previous cases). I disagree with many of his personal choices especially in styling and fashion. They hurt my eyes. And feelings lol. Or am I just old and I couldn't understand current fashion trend? I wish the kids have stylists to guide them even during off times or at least when going to the airport when they know, all eyes are going to be on them. But V would disagree with that idea for sure. He's such a free spirit, we should just let him choose what he wants or he wouldn't be himself.

Like I wrote in my previous post, I finally succumbed to it : yes my bias is V. He's super cute I couldn't resist! I've been watching V-centric videos all weekend and I'm still thirsty for more. He's all I could think about.

Just V
His behavior in general seems to be this crazy, hyper kid, but gets shy easily as well. From all the videos of him that I've watched, I've never gotten any negative vibe from him except from when he's very sleepy/just a little cranky - pouty. Even when Jungkook teased him as he was sleeping in between performances, in the end he was just reacting by smiling super cutely. I mean IDK, if I were an idol running on sleep deprived days and someone annoys me in the middle of that very limited time that I got to sleep, I might beat the hell out of them.

There's this one video that I'm crazy about right now - it's one of those backstage variety videos from music shows that they record and broadcast before an artist's performance. At the end of the section there's a random dance break with one member doing dance moves in the center and all the others making like a tight wall around that one person - staying still and keeping their faces as expressionless as possible. At first they showed J-Hope　singing happy birthday to himself while dancing frantically and the kids were reacting with tiny chuckles, after that was RapMon's turn, which was more than a little cringey. And then there's V doing his crazy, high energy moves and shouts when all of the sudden, he slaps all the members in a circular motion as part of his dance INTENTIONALLY. He's crazy! In a culture that respects hierarchy so much you have to address anyone older than you with an honorific and polite language, V, the second youngest member of the group managed to slap all of the members ON CAMERA. Everyone burst into laugh and tiny little 16 yr-old Jungkook was so amused he was still rolling on the floor laughing - literally - even after everyone had left the space. It was super cute. And V was a cute tiny little bean back then, too (this was from 2014).

To mention facts about V is easy :
- He loves the members
- He loves dogs/animals
- He loves kids/babies
- He loves his family (his grandma, especially)
- He loves ARMY so much
- He loves pokemon
- He loves food
- He loves to play

Hwarang
My heart melts into mush seeing how his Hwarang hyungs treat him. They all just love him so much! And what is there not to love, he is super cute, very sociable, charming, adorable, very active, positive and loving. I didn't watch the whole show, just (obviously) Hansung cuts here and there, promo vids, behind the scenes and interviews. All the other cast members seem to have positive things to say about our adorable little V. To be honest, at first I was concerned when I found out Tae's drama debut was a period drama. I've always thought that if an idol would debut in a television drama, the easy and obvious choice would be school love story. Period drama could be very tricky especially for young, newbie actors. There's this historical portrayal, the language must be different, with soo many other challenges like costumes, settings, required martial arts skills and physical strength, etc. Also, if not made well, it surely would flop HARD (the mental image of low budget Indonesian period dramas makes me shudder). I'm also not sure about the popularity of period drama (esp in East Asia), but drama with modern settings and conflicts seem to be much more relatable and easier to swallow by general viewers.

HOWEVER. This Hansung character in Hwarang. Wow, I'm speechless. I don't know how the agency managed to get it for him, but it was THE PERFECT ROLE for V. Taetae was super super cute in his Hansung getup. I've always loved longer hair on anyone, so YES to long hair Taetae. He looked super super cute, the character is perfect for him; young, mischievous, but also loving, cute and a little spoiled. His acting was great, and he easily made a whole new connections with all these actors, many of them with much longer career in the entertainment industry. I feel really happy for him for getting to experience this.

For a while now I couldn't decide who my bias would be in bts. The ones I'm intrigued the most are (if it's not obvious) Suga, V, Jimin, Jungkook. I was really curious about the members' popularity level, who is the most popular? What pairing is the most popular? After some research and looking at more evidences, V seems to be the most popular, followed by Jungkook and Jimin. It left me wonder why the youngest members in the group are almost always the most popular ones. But again, are they? I'm not an expert at all in KPop fandom. Not sure about the most popular OTP, but guessing from popularity level, then it must be vkook, right?

New comments on the members after more observation :
Jin : Like I said before, something is off with him that makes him unsympathetic. He's handsome, yes, but his personality gives an arrogant vibe? IDK. It is too obvious that he's very proud of his looks. He speaks a lot in bts videos but not outside his comfort zones like during variety etc. Also (other than solos obviously) why does Jin always get less part than anybody else, both in singing and being center in dance formations? This makes me question, is it because he's not talented enough?

Suga : I think Suga is very talented. Other than making music he also do photography and edits, and he is really good at being an MC. He probably would prefer to be on his own than in an idol group. He just doesn't match the type. He seems so over being in variety shows that meant to ridicule idols and be stupid in general.

J-Hope : J-Hope, I think his bubbly personality is charming, and he performs well both dancing and singing. He seems to be someone who is fun to be around. He is scared of EVERYTHING. Except for humans.

RapMon : RapMon is alright. I notice how other members are respecting him as the group leader.　He seems to be very talented in creating music and lyrics, we can feel his passion. Being the leader, he seems to be very articulate and his voice is really nice to hear.

Jimin : I just lately realized that Jimin is the same age as V and was in the same class in High School. He was a little chubby and was in his weird puberty period when they debuted, but my God, Blood Sweat and Tears era was a turning point. He clearly was the star of that MV. He seems humble, kind and loving. Has soccer player thighs.

V : Tae is just wacky. Like I wrote before, I thought he's doing all the weird stuff to attract attention because he thinks he's cute. But after it turns out, 1) he doesn't think he's cute 2) he's not doing this for attention, he's just wacky. He's always hyper with so much energy. He doesn't care about his looks which is why he often ends up in a very unfortunate fashion situation, and he intentionally make weird/ugly face selfies with the camera being positioned too close to the face. Anyone narcissistic (*cough* Jin *cough*) would NEVER do that, and would never publish anything they look weird/ugly in. V doesn't care, which only makes him much more likeable and approachable. He also ... is almost always be the one who initiate physical contact with other members/people/animal/plushies/anything in general - I guess he loves hugs and cuddles - which makes him even more adorable. He has a lot of charm that I can't help but being drawn to him.

Jungkook : He's a little baby. Looking at his face pre-plastic surgery predebut thrown me off a little, but he is such a lovable personality and like I said, he's grown to be a very handsome man. He loves his hyungs, when teases them and no one can be angry at him because he is just too cute & adorable. He's always happily smiling and seems to be a presence loved by everyone in the group (and fans). He's a good, talented, obedient kid.