I FIXED MY GRAPHICS COMM battlerain! THE WHOLE THING. GAAAH. I'm lucky that I don't have that many entries yet, and that my formatting is just really, really simple HTML. Mainly I only need to make the same folders in my new hosting, reupload the pics, and change the URL with find and replace function. The originals I couldn't find in my hard drives I saved manually from Photobucket (it works okay, I didn't know what happened before).

I bought 1 month DW paid accounts for my personal blog and my graphics comm, I fixed my personal blog's mood theme first. I didn't know that I don't need to set a mood theme on my comm, it's automatically shows mine. I don't mind giving money to DW at all though. I went ahead and fix all entries in my graphics comm from top to bottom.

As I was re-coding, I reminisced my muses and how my graphics evolve around them. I've been doing graphics since a very long time as just a side hobby, but got more serious in iconing during my Adam Lambert fandom period. Back then, my muse was Tommy. It was 2009 - 2010 when I was still mainly using LiveJournal, my graphics was not good so I don't think I will go back that far to fix and restore my old graphics comm where all my Tommy arts are. Tommy wasn't a very popular icon subject, and that pushes me beyond my comfort zone to create all sorts of fannish things surrounding him. I did a decent job. I made many-many icons, a fanmix, picspams, etc. He was a cute glitterbaby. My first 'real' fandom experience ever.

I moved on to Andreja Pejic in around 2011? I think. Unlike previous fandom I wasn't emotionally attached to her at all, it was not a fandom per se, it was more about me personally adoring her beauty. And being in a fashion industry, fandom activities surrounding her was limited anyway. However, she was beautiful. So gorgeous. All of her editorials were so easy to work with. Back then she was super famous with so many runway walks for both men and women's fashion, endless high fashion magazine shoots, each with interesting concepts and pretty colors. I grew a lot as a graphics artist during this period and I created so many things based on her works. Looking at them now, I miss working with beautiful fashion editorials and her beautiful long blond hair.

And then I got into K-Pop. Although I used different people and groups as my subject, my main muse was obviously, Luhan. And HunHan, too. HunHan was the cutest ship ever and I still believe it til this day. Bb Lu was super cute and super popular so even though at first I struggled with resources, he is now EVERYWHERE. He has music videos, was in countless magazine spreads, commercials, movies, events, variety shows, you name it. I'm no longer invested in him emotionally, but I still enjoy looking at him and I certainly wouldn't mind to use him in graphics, although the last time I did was 2 years ago. I looked at my icons I made of him and they still make me smile. They are still beautiful. He was beautiful. I really want to finish my dailyicon claim, I stopped at 84, which is so close to goal.

Now two years apart, I got into BTS focusing on V. To be honest, I'm struggling. There are a lot of factors that contribute to this. One, I had two years break from Photoshop. I haven't been creating or learning anything new. The trend in the icon community changed a lot. I feel so old still clinging to icon styles from years ago. Two, I am very new to the fandom and have very small amount of resources. I need to dig in deeper, scour different parts of the internet and watch TONS of past videos to get my way around. Google is my friend, but there are only so much things you can find via google without base knowledge. It's 4+ years worth of fandom materials, I don't think I can ever catch up. Three, Tae is pretty, but I love him for his personality more than his looks (unlike previous cases). I disagree with many of his personal choices especially in styling and fashion. They hurt my eyes. And feelings lol. Or am I just old and I couldn't understand current fashion trend? I wish the kids have stylists to guide them even during off times or at least when going to the airport when they know, all eyes are going to be on them. But V would disagree with that idea for sure. He's such a free spirit, we should just let him choose what he wants or he wouldn't be himself.