I remember how excited I was at the beginning of the show because I've never followed a group from before debut. Well now I regret that I ever did hahahaha.

I had a bad feeling before last night's episode and my intuition was right. ... They kicked out Felix.

Poor baby. He was trying so hard to practice singing, dancing, and on top of that, adapting to Korean life, learning the language and perfecting his pronunciation. He's such a likeable personality on the show, it's hard to imagine Stray Kids without him. His voice has such unique character to it, I'm sure with just a little more guidance and training he would be able to utilize that to his maximum potential. Honestly JYP said he lacks charisma but when he performs, I can see charisma. And with strategic part sharing his deep voice would add greatness to Stray Kids' songs.

I cried myself to sleep last night. I woke up this morning sleep-deprived with pain in my eyes. I hate myself for getting too invested in this shit. I could hear my past self telling me 'What did I say? Don't get invested in survival shows!'. I felt tricked. I got into Stray Kids believing that it's a non-elimination show. I fell in love with the kids. Fuck JYP. I know there's still a chance for both Minho and Felix to get back to the group, but I feel so broken now. If this is merely for applying mental pressure to the kids to get them stronger and closer, it's too cruel!! This is mental abuse. God, the kids breaking down like that and tiny little Felix practicing alone til morning and crying at the end!!! MY. HEART. CAN'T. TAKE. THIS.

Are they kicking him out from the dorm too just like they did with Minho? WHERE THE FUCK WOULD FELIX LIVES, he was already living there before the show even started. I can't do this.

What is the point of training period if they didn't give them proper time and teacher? These kids are still super young, they have so much potential.

Fans are telling each other not to give up, participate in the survey for the final decision and shit but I'm too old for this and I'm exhausted. I do not want to invest any more of my time, energy and feelings if I do not know for sure eliminated members are going to be brought back ever. What's the point of getting your hopes up just to get crushed again? That's just self-torture. I'll sit here and wait. If they didn't debut together, fine I'll be a casual fan. If they did debut together, then I might be a stan.

Funny that I was just thinking to change my default icon to Felix. Nope. Ain't happenin until I know for sure that he's debuting.

It's a very different experience when your favorite/bias is the one who got eliminated/quit. It's too painful you'd lost all your willing to support the group. I'm getting flashbacks of Luhan leaving EXO and how for a while every time I see EXO I was reminded of that pain and disappointment I felt when everything went down.