I can't concentrate at all today at work. My twitter feed is mourning in total silence. Everyone is trying to go by their day in pain. Literally no one posted anything except for the ones updating news about Jjong. Even though K-Pop consists of numerous fandoms, it is still a small, close-knit community. He was an artist from a big company with a big group and 9 years long career, every single person in the industry/community knows who Jonghyun is. This news hit hard on everyone. I'm miles away from SK but I can feel the air is heavy and the community as a whole is in mourning.

I kept browsing Naver and digging in the hashtags... I don't even know what for. I guess I was looking for an answer, I was looking for a closure even though I know there's nothing more for me to take in. I just need to accept it. I've been crying on and off since yesterday and this still doesn't feel real. It can't be.

Everyone has gone through dark times in their lives. I'm so lucky that I'm now in a good place, living a good life, with a good support system around me. I'm going to post this and go offline for a while to seek some peace.