It's only on Episode 3 and it's already affecting me negatively.

Last Friday my plan to hit the gym fell through so I ate to break my fast in the office (the food was too salty) and then went home. I was just chatting with Christine and then I thought, hey, I could watch PDX101 live right now! Surprisingly, everything worked well, the streaming site worked, my internet connection was also much better than other days which is basically a miracle. So there I was, watching the third episode, live, for 2 friggin hours. Not caring about my sleep schedule even though it's currently Ramadan which means I have to be up for suhoor at 4AM.

Episode three is ... okay, but the songs they chose for the team battle are disappointing. The concept is, they pick top tier boy groups in the K-Pop world, and then they pick two songs; their debut song and their newer song (not even the latest smh). The songs are... challenging, which is probably the point of the battle, and debut songs are even more because let's face it, most of these were not successful debut songs. EXO's debut song was from 2012, and BTS' from 2013, 5+ years ago, with a concept they long have ditched, and they didn't even do well back then. It's incomparable to Wanna One's or NU'EST W's debut songs which are from recent years. Especially Energetic was a MASSIVE success, multiple music show wins and chart reigns.

Anyway, kids have to these songs, right. Man I'm already irritated while writing this hahaha. Of course there will be twists and drama about internal conflicts and different dynamics etc.

I think I just have to go back to my principle of not reading comments? I wasn't even really active but I did actively seek out discussion posts to fulfill my emotional addiction.

Things I'm disappointed about:
- When I realized that I have irrational hate/negative view of some of the trainees when they all are just trying their best. Especially when it's over something stupid like how they look or their age or other things that are out of their control. That is not wise. I should support them all! I should not have emotional attachment! I should not have cared this much!
- When I realized how one performance of a contestant could affect me so much. Listen, Mingyu is a good kid. Yes he's pretty, yes he's trying really hard, but one other fact about him is, that he can't dance. He just can't. There's no way he can improve his dancing in a very short period of time with an extra difficult song to practice on. He's a lost cause. I knew that, but somehow looking at how badly he's dancing from his fancam affected me a lot. I'm so disappointed it makes me sad and makes me no longer want to watch the show. Why? What is this emotional attachment? I suppose to be here just to have fun.