(1) On Blogging
Yesterday I was re-visiting my old blog(s). Some of the entries are so much fun to read I was seriously considering to import my blog content from LJ to DW.
But soon I realized, I didn't want it. The fun part of my blog didn't last that long, every nice things has an end. Other part of my blog was full of rants, comment fights, locked entries with stuff I never want to read again. Soon my LJ became a deserted blog, I use it only for temporarily coding entries that needs a lot of html for other places like tjrpics or andrej-daily or my graphics comm milledlavender. And of course, they all are set to private. I realized, things like this happens because I felt like there are too many people watching my blog. And I feel judged. I don't feel free to express what I feel or I want to say because I don't want to be judged, or worse I'm scared that I might offend people with what I wrote. It's not that what I write is offensive, but really, we gather internet friends from various fandoms, from past events and occasions. Their interest right now might not be anymore relevant with ours. You could be annoying simply by repeatedly posting things that your friends list aren't interested in.

This brings me to my next point, I read my other blog in which I said I tend to repeat the same cycle over and over again when it comes to blogging. First I would catch a 'new blog syndrome'. This is where I fell in love with a platform, I start writing entries almost everyday, I make it look pretty by choosing a cute theme, and even customize it to my liking. But once I get people to follow me, I abandon the place and immediately go look for a new land to dig in. I also stated that 'I'm allergic to followers'. No matter how often and insistently I said to myself that 'I'm blogging for and about myself', the blog just lost its charm once a lot of people follow the blog. It doesn't matter whether I know them or not, I'm close to them or not, I just don't feel comfortable around them. I can't be myself.

So yeah, I'd rather start a fresh new blog with a more positive attitude and forget about the dark past lol.


(2) Help! I might be obsessed with Sharon Needles!
I started watching season 4 of RuPaul's Drag Race without any expectation. I didn't try to find out who the contestants are beforehand, I didn't try to remember when the show will premier, I wasn't even sure if I'm going to watch it. Either I think that this season might be shitty, or IDK I was scared that I'm going to be overly obsessed about it just like last year.

When I started watching, I couldn't help but to obsess about it. I joined discussion on ONTD, turned on my notification for drag race related posts, back to watching drag race related communities, I read reviews and interviews religiously, and I've even re-watched the episode several times (and I'm going to continue doing that as long as I haven't got the next one lol). I wasn't going to watch Untucked but now that I'm officially obsessed, of course I had to.

This is the hardest part; I might be obsessed about Sharon Needles. Okay I am. I mean how could I not. I'm not particularly a goth girl nor I've ever been one, but I've just never seen the kind of drag she's doing. I've never even imagine that THAT kind of drag is possible to do. That only already made me curious and my eyes are glued to her every time she got some screentime. How would she react, what will she say, what will she do, what is she wearing?

I really love her persona. Her take on drag is different than what I've seen before, her voice and fake british accent and sense of humor adds to an enjoyable tv personality. She's adorable out of drag, too. The way she squeal and flail after Ru announced that Elvira, Mistress of The Dark will be one of the guest judges was adorable. The way she dresses in sloppy shorts and sleeveless shirt dragging around a plushie is adorable. The way she gush about her dark side idols is adorable. I love the scene where they have to gather random stuff from drag queen zombies, particularly because Sharon has a pink hair (which I LAHVE) and awesome outfit, but mostly because she was so hilarious! She kept talking to the zombies "you're gorgeous", "honey, I dig the look", "it's like a family reunion around here!" and it's killing me. Also, that "meth look" conversation was totally comedy gold.

AAAND today is the airing of second episode!!! AAAAAHHHH *runs around in circle in excitement* Though I probably wouldn't be able to see it until I'm off work (or worse tomorrow, or even worse til the download link appears which is only god knows when) *sobs*.

I might will start using creepy icons of her and start making picspams of 'Sharon Needles moments' episode review or something.