And so it's official. Lulu is not attending SMTOWN Live Tokyo. Is he okay? Will he be okay? When will he be back? Will he be back at all? I don't know. What I know, is that I don't want to spend my next second, hour, days or months worrying about him. I have too much problems and stress already and I don't need more. Fandom for me is for fun. When it's not fun anymore, then it's time to leave.

I was still hoping and waiting for him but that was my last string.

It'll be really hard but I'm leaving. I've taken off my exochoco and omona notifications, I deleted fyeahluhan column on my flipboard, I need to do some tumblr sorting before I can open it regularly again.

I don't know if I will be back if he is, but for now, I'm cutting all the ties. It's getting unhealthy (pun unintended). I'll find something else to obsess about.