and that doesn't make us relieved at all, instead we worry if he is pushing himself to perform because it is his hometown and there is NO WAY he could skip these concerts even though he is not well enough to do it.

When I saw this pic from the rehearsal my heart sunk. He looked like a zombie. His dark circles were just as bad as the last time we saw him at the airport (which was two weeks ago), his hair messy untended. On the main stage for his solo he pulled his shirt higher than usual for fan service, but instead of cheering with joy I worry even more. I could see rib cage which proves that he has been losing weight (possibly due to his illness). I'm really really worried about him. Worried that his illness maybe far more serious than what we all thought. Worried about the future of his career. Maybe I'm reading too much into it, I just wish my bb can live a healthy and happy life.

On a not very depressing note, Lulu looks so different with black hair! I believe we've never seen him in black hair since his debut in 2012. This is the first time in forever. I always thought that he has the kind of face and skin color that fits a fairer shade of any color, but he looks good in black, looks even younger than he's already looking.





I feel so guilty looking at these pictures from today. I was hoping I could see his face healthy, young and happy but I found none of those things in these pictures. Even after resting completely from all activities for 2 weeks, he still looked so tired. I wonder if he's going back to Korea after this... or he'll stay longer in Beijing. I wonder if exo has a comeback / mini album / whatever he'll sit this one out to heal himself.