I was so shocked yesterday morning when I saw my phone and I got a notification of an ONTD post which announced the passing of Maddox. It broke my heart, it was all I got in my head all day yesterday and today, too. I couldn't believe this, everything happened so fast.

I felt bad for being such an entitled fan. I didn't complain, but I was disappointed when I could no longer find his What's The T videos, not knowing the reason he was not posing anything was because he was battling cancer. I don't know him personally, obviously, I've only seen him in YouTube videos, but even only through videos you could feel that he is such a positive energy. When you see him it's impossible not to feel delighted and happy. His laugh used to make me smile and brighten my boring, monotonous days. I was always looking forward to his new videos.

In his last video, he already looked so much thinner than he already was. But he kept his positive energy, and he mentioned that he's going to make more videos and he promised us that he's going to win this battle.

I just watched his video on Tuesday, he passed away Thursday night. So sudden and so sad. This feels weird, I think this is the first time I experience losing a YouTuber that I love. I used to watch him a lot, and now he's just gone... My heart is with his family and friends.