I've been in fandom ups and downs before and I learned my lesson. When something bad happens... it is best to stay away from it.

But it's just impossible, isn't it? It's all I got in my mind since the news broke. And I too, finally had shed tears over this (I promised myself I wouldn't). My heart is with EXO, it is so hard to imagine how they're feeling right now, how they're coping with this, having a person who has been with them for years (their leader, even) turned his back and left them, probably forever. How all years of hard work and their dreams are in jeopardy, just right before their first ever solo concert that every idol might had dreamed of since their trainee days.

I cried seeing Lay squealed like a little girl at their Japan fanmeeting, I cried imagining how heart broken Tao is, I cried thinking how much more sleep everyone is losing for having to re-do everything for the concert.

I respect Kris' decision for himself, but after observing how well planned and organized his leave was, I can't but feeling for the other 11 who are hurt. I can't with him right now.


*stay strong, EXO kids*