16 April 2014 @ 10:24 pm
Not a while ago, I saw a quote that says

Forgive others, not because they deserve forgiveness, but because you deserve peace - Jonathan Lockwood Huie

And I've been thinking a lot about it. Since my 'drama' post I wrote back in February, I'm still bitter about this one person. I HATE her and it's haunting me. I didn't tell her that what she did irritated me, or that her treatments towards me was awful as hell. The event was over and I don't see the need to start a confrontation then. I just wanted to forget all this, forget that I ever know her and move on.

But it was not easy. I still have some photos that she needs to report the event and I insisted on not giving them to her. I don't care. I don't even reply to her messages. And I realized reading the quote, that I don't feel peace within me because I myself can't let go of this. She doesn't need me to forgive her - she doesn't even know what I'm thinking. I need to forgive her.

So today I sent the photos to another person who said that she is making the report which later on will be sent to the person in question. I mentioned to her as to why I was holding back giving them the photos. I thought it will give me peace, but now I'm not so sure. I just hope I don't appear preachy or whiny. Anyway, lesson learned and I hope we all can be a better person in the future.
Current Mood: peaceful