Saw this on tumblr this morning, and while it's awesome and pretty and art-y, my mind went straight to : EXO. Damn.

I have resisted not to fall for EXO (or other K-Pop boy bands, for that matter), but it was so hard! Ever since I was frequently reminded of how cute Chanyeol is by my tumblr dashboard, I got easily obsessed with EXO and I wanted to know more and more about them. I'm fully aware that I'm too old to stan EXO but whatever, they are so precious, gaaah!!

Two weeks ago I was in Japan for one whole week. Before leaving, I thought I would be excited about going back there after two years. But it turned out ... I wasn't. There was no excitement, it was just that I was in Japan again, and I felt so lonely. I guess the memory of Japan to me is no longer a good one. I might still be excited to be in Japan again if this was 6 years ago, but after living there for almost 5 years, and going through everything that I've been through in Japan, ... the country mostly reminds me of shame, depression and loneliness.

I did some happy shopping and eat some food that I've missed since going back to my home country, but still ... It felt so lonely (I was alone, walking through winter in Tokyo most of the time). Also since I went there for work, I didn't have as much free time as I wanted. (oh and the training at headquarter went fine)

I do want to go there again, just pure travelling. Probably with my brother, sometime next year or the year after that. I'm sure it would be much more fun to go there with someone who has never gone there before, because excitement is contagious, I believe. Also, I love my brother and I'm sure he's a lot of fun. I do wish my feelings for Japan could gradually change back into a good, happy ones, with lots of fun memories I've gone through in that country.

Anyways, I hate to write depressing things on here so I will get back with more fun stuff next time! I'm heading East tomorrow on Christmas night to attend one of my college best friends in Tulungagung with 4 other friends, I'm sure it'll be a fun trip! And I will have another trip from January 2nd to 5th to Solo with Dina. Today is my last day of working for this year, and I'll be back in the office by 7th January next year.