I've never attempted to apply to elite icon/graphics communities because I know I would get rejected and I don't respond nicely to rejection. I know my skills wasn't there yet, so I wouldn't bother trying until I'm ready.

With all the bad things that happened this week, I'm in desperate need of something to obsess with so yesterday I said 'fuck it' and just went ahead and applied for an elite community I've been wanting to join for so long, roughandtumblr. I didn't even think that much about the sample graphics I provided, I think, well, if I got rejected then I will practice more and apply again when I'm improved.

Today I woke up to an invitation to the community! YAY! One mod said no and two mods said yes. I got praised for my range of style and composition by a graphics maker whom I adore! I know I still need to brush up my skills, and I'm grateful that they gave me the opportunity to learn while participating in the community!

I was determined to join another elite community, 20inspirations but I just found out today that they're closing the community in July :( In response to that, they have closed the application post as well. It was such a phenomenal community, sad that I didn't have the chance to participate but I wish for the best for the mods. Hopefully there'll be other great comms coming after it for the icon community to engage in :)

RL has been taking over most of my time. I miss Tommy, I miss Andrej, I miss RPDR, so I definitely will get back to my fandoms soon!